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Suitcase

I don’t remember how I like to sleep
The inside of a kitchen drawer
Or a suitcase-less floor

I know the elevator buttons here
React a bit too slowly
I know he’s letting go of me –
I don’t remember when it started, but I can feel it growing
I remember knowing
That this couldn’t last forever
I remember feeling better, I remember we were changing
I don’t remember breaking though I think we tried to fix it

When will he get angry that
My nerves are getting jumpy
I don’t remember feeling calmer though someone said I could be
I remember knowing they’ll choose what they want to see in me
I don’t remember losing the chance to take the stand
But there’s a suitcase in my hand
And somewhere else I need to be.

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Forward

Maybe things do work out
That they knew what they were talking about
When they said “time heals all”
And though the fall may leave scars
To live is to be marked
So wear them with pride
I think it’s time that I tried
To forgive and forget
To wish you the best
And to live my life better
To stop wondering whether
The pain was worth the pleasure
You weren’t my forever
And I’ll leave it at that
There’s no going back
And with that I will move forward
And with that I will move toward
The light – a flower toward the sun
I’ve decided to believe 
The best is yet to come.

Light

I found a light in your smile 
I know it’s been a while since we talked
But I have not forgotten
Silver linings that you made for me
And all the cells you saved for me
At a time I was determined 
To occupy less space and breathe 
So lightly no one heard me
You made me feel deserving of
Happiness, acceptance, love
The way you fell in love with life 
Thanks for your eternal light.

To the Lonely

Tonight, if you’re alone,

Turn your eyes to the darkness and know

There is no nothingness – amidst the abyss I exist somewhere too.

If your bones are built with stone tonight

And the light from the moon refuses to grace you

Know that I too have felt heavy

With all the things I failed to be, the forgotten details, the sum of my missteps

The not yets and too lates.

If your mistakes have made you older

Than you’d thought you’d be tonight

Know that through all this chilling air, in spite of it all,

I’ve left my light on for you.

If, tonight, you feel you’re falling fast

Past faces and planets and layers of skin

Know that I’ve been there too –

My skin has been blue and my hair failed to grow

But I let myself go and stomached the fall and I think you should too –

Fall into the darkness

and know that somwhere across it

I’m waiting for you.