Tag Archives: beginnings

Suitcase

I don’t remember how I like to sleep
The inside of a kitchen drawer
Or a suitcase-less floor

I know the elevator buttons here
React a bit too slowly
I know he’s letting go of me –
I don’t remember when it started, but I can feel it growing
I remember knowing
That this couldn’t last forever
I remember feeling better, I remember we were changing
I don’t remember breaking though I think we tried to fix it

When will he get angry that
My nerves are getting jumpy
I don’t remember feeling calmer though someone said I could be
I remember knowing they’ll choose what they want to see in me
I don’t remember losing the chance to take the stand
But there’s a suitcase in my hand
And somewhere else I need to be.

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Better

I felt better today
But is better enough?
How do you know when it’s time to give up?
When is it time to stop being tough
And admit what we both know
We’d both be better if I chose to go
But is better enough?
I know things are rough
But there was a time things were better
Well, better than better – let me explain
There was a time when your name
Sent shivers down my spine
There was a time when just “fine”
Was never how we were
There was a time you had me all
Before you spent part of me on her
But when is it time to give up on what we were
And accept that just “better”
Should never be the goal
When is it time to walk away & fold?

Forward

Maybe things do work out
That they knew what they were talking about
When they said “time heals all”
And though the fall may leave scars
To live is to be marked
So wear them with pride
I think it’s time that I tried
To forgive and forget
To wish you the best
And to live my life better
To stop wondering whether
The pain was worth the pleasure
You weren’t my forever
And I’ll leave it at that
There’s no going back
And with that I will move forward
And with that I will move toward
The light – a flower toward the sun
I’ve decided to believe 
The best is yet to come.

Blue

I hope you look good in blue,

That loneliness suits you well

That you bleach me away and never look back

I hope you find what I lack

That I never cross your mind

That you’re fine and I’m forgotten

Among other lovers’ lips and

places i’ll never go again

I hope you bend for someone else

And you ignore the way I broke for you

I hope I was a joke to you

That my skin was too thin

I hope you look good in blue

That this doesn’t hit you hard

That you’re happy with the cards you played

I hope you stay away

That you never turn back

Or are saddened by the lack of me

I hope that you lose track of me

Easily and in little time

I hope you’re just fine and

forget that I may not be

I hope you never see me

In the face of someone new

I hope that unlike me

you look beautiful in blue.